Insanity.

It is often said that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and over again, and expecting a different result.

I am pretty sure I'm insane.

I lost ugly tonight. 1 and 1. Took an hour and fifteen minutes, and I could only manage 2 games. My opponent had some junk, but not so much that I don't think I should have been able to handle it. I'm just...so confused. And a bit lost. I have these beautiful, technically sound strokes, yet I can't seem to win a match with them. I keep losing to people with ugly strokes, bad footwork, and lotsa junk...but you know what...they win and I lose. And, I know I'm supposed to focus on getting better and not 'resort' to junk to win, but there is only so much losing I can take!

I get to do it all over on Friday for the last match of the season.

I have this wonderful physical game, and no mental game to match it at all.

*banging head on desk*

So, do I go out there and do the same thing *again* (INSANE), or do I bring the junk?

At least my team keeps winning. Yay for L and some strong doubles players!

To add insult to injury, I tweaked the ankle yet again when I came down awkwardly while jumping up trying to get a lob. Missed the shot, and farked up the ankle again.

*primal scream*